I know just how difficult it is to address intimate concerns, and it’s even harder when you’re doing it in isolation, relying on google for answers, doubting yourself, and wasting precious time. Firstly, nothing is wrong with you. I’ve consulted with, taught, mentored, and supported thousands of people with sexual concerns over the years and what you are experiencing is normal.
When there is a concern that involves your body or intimate life, it can turn into secret shame. blame, resentment, anxiety, fear... Questioning the self, wondering what is wrong, wondering or worrying that this is all there is.
Most people take their car to an expert, if they want to excel in a sport or an activity like yoga they take lessons, and they learn from an expert. Someone who has studied and worked in the field for years. Not from a place of “not being good enough to figure it out on my own,” but by making a smart decision to model the expertise of others. Just as in any other subject.